my suicidal dreams

bored

2004-06-20T16:59:17Z

hey well i havnt updated in a while n im really bored so i figure why not do it now! lol well the only thing really worth writing about that happend was yesterday...every friday danney spends the night in return he cleans my sisters apt. lol its been like that every friday...well we woke up yesterday n mrs.bull called his cell phone and she was at the mall with her daughter. well she was gunna have danney go there to meet her daughter and she heard me in the background n i got on the phone n shes like are you gunna come too!? i was like sure y not n shes liek ok well meet u here n we'll do brunch lol so my sister got my moms car n we went to the mall at like 1230 n we met mrs.bull n her daugher there n then jesse came which made it even more funny since danney n him have been trying to meet her daughter since like forever lol well we hung out at the food court for like 2 hours n now mrs.bull is gunna come over with her daughter n practice henna on me n lisa n were gunna have a "girls day" n were gunna watch movies n stuff im excited lol mrs.bull is awesome! lol o man yall r prolly thinkin im like the biggest dork but o well lol if i actually cared about what other ppl thot of me i wouldnt do half the things i do lol ok ima go bc im babysittin n i have to go pick up 2 other kids in a lil so ttyl bye
Jill

sooo tired

2004-06-11T18:12:58Z

i woke up at 630 this freakin mornin to babysit....o howmuch fun THAT is....i have less than an hour left and then im gunna go hang out with danney at my sisters house...im not sure if hes syain over or not...o well anywho...this summer sux so far..not that i dont love my family and lil sammy i just hate kids now lol. but even tho i dont get paid its all good lisa trys to do little things for me whenever she can n that works just as much lol ok ima go the baby is wakin up ttyl bye
Jill

bleh

2004-06-10T05:09:02Z

so i found this poem online n i think this is really good so ima post it

I have drugs down my throat,
And cuts on my wrist,
The room is dark,
In the corner I sit,
All my friends are gone,
As I cry a black tear,
I soon start to wonder,
Why am I here.
Is it for the torture?
Or all the pain?
I can't find the answers,
To keep me sane,
I'm lost forever,
In my scary life,
It can't get worse,
Since I play my life like 2 dice,
I walk into the kitchen,
I see the silver knife,
The shiney blade stabs through me,
A little longer and my pain will go away,
And then they will all say,
death by choice,
DEATH BY SUICIDE

i just thot it was pretty.......

che' ur a sick bastard u kno that lol

eeeeeeeeeeeeee

2004-06-10T03:25:41Z

so me and che desided that on aug.19th that will be our anniversary....so today is our anniversary making day! yaaaaaaaaaaay to us! WE WANT PRESENTS! lol hehe :-D

booooooooooored

2004-06-09T21:08:55Z

holy hell i really gotta start updating more! well right now im....u guessd it...BABYSITTING woohoo....but i have really good news for myself....my mom made me an apointment for my dentist n now i get to fix my gaping hole! lol if any of u kno me then u kno what the hole is lol and i think im the only person ever to ve excited about going to the dentist lol...yea so hmm anything new....not really.....im gunna go make my new sn prettier...ill bbl if i feel like it bye
Jill

sjfsdjfkskdhf

2004-06-07T03:58:07Z

well i havnt updated since...well since che made this for me lol theres not much to say....this summer blows..i havnt gotten a good nights sleep...my pillow smells like him..i get sad way to easily! lol ok new sunject...i hate babysitting...i even had thots of killing the poor kid lol o god im going to hell lol ummm yea so i got a new s/n its AmIMissing71487 and everyone better kno what the day is!!!! lil jess didnt.....tisk tisk lol AND she told me she thot james' bday was the 14th n hes like not hats jills....HE KNEW IT N NOT HER! lol o well ima go to bed n ima try to update more ill ttyl bye
Jill

eeeeeeeeeeeee

2004-05-29T17:35:37Z

i love my jibby she made this all pretty for me!!! wooohooo got che go che! lol so um yea now all i gotta do is put all the names from my old journal on here! so ummmm yea anywho i just woke up n i gotta star t laundry so ill write more after i fix everything! ttyl bye
Jill